I hate being vulnerable. I always feel naked and open to all kinds of pain. I felt that I let down my guard recently and let my emotions get the best of me. I knew I was at a place in my life of feeling overwhelmed and just not feeling myself. †I let my guard down and shared my emotions and just way to much of myself. †I felt that my fears and everything else was visible for everyone to see (naked!). In my head I know that you shouldn’t build a wall around your heart, but my heart wants to be protected and being vulnerable is risky. Past pains have a way of making you fearful of sharing any part of yourself. I just don’t want to hurt †anymore. Unfortunately life holds no guarantees. I may give a part of myself again and I may get hurt again. But hopefully I will have the courage and the compassion to forgive myself †for making a mistake and take the risk to become vulnerable yet again. It is something I struggle with, but I am willing to take down that wall (slowly) around my heart one brick at a time. They tell me it will be worth it! I sure hope so.
Being vulnerable doesn’t have to be threatening. Just have the courage to be sincere, open and honest. This opens the door to deeper communication all around. It creates self-empowerment and the kind of connections with others we all want in life. Speaking from the heart frees us from the secrets that burden us. These secrets are what make us sick or fearful. Speaking truth helps you get clarity on your real heart directives.
— Sara Paddison