Inspiration Monday

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Like I have said in my previous post, I’ve been trying to find a job. Basically I have crossed into that ugly space in my life called desperation! I know that it is due to the fact that I have $20 in my bank account and I have a beautiful little boy that just keeps† growing and likes to eat! But this weekend I received a total of 7 rejection letters (yes I said 7!) One company rejected me 6 times! I guess they really wanted me to get the message. The other company said that my experience and qualifications were impressive, but…. The bottom line is they didn’t want me. At least that is how I was looking at it. As I worked on some jewelry this weekend, came up with some great ideas for my line, outlines my schedule for next week so that I could work on my art for† textile design and listened to my music. I realized that maybe everything that I have been praying for and wanting for so long is calling ( okay maybe pushing) me to action.† Maybe their has been a shift in my thinking, but my $20 balance made me go to that familiar place of desperation and just plain feeling like maybe I’m not as creative as I think.† As I sat listening to Alicia Keys Girl on fire CD making my jewelry and sketching. I was happy,at peace in my own world. Feeling like I was the creative bomb diggity!!! I† thought maybe I’m† not where I want to be but I’m further than I was last year. Maybe I haven’t fully embraced how beautifully, creatively awesome I am but I’m now on the right path.† I still need more than $20 in my bank account, but focusing on the rejection will only give me a migraine! I’d rather focus on creating more joy and peace in my life. I want to create a life that is filled with purpose and passion.

 

Hey, if you were a friend, you want to get know me again
If you were worth a while
You’d be happy to see me smile
I’m not expecting sorry
I’m too busy finding myself
I got this
I found me, I found me, yeah
I don’t need your opinion
I’m not waiting for your ok
I’ll never be perfect, but at least now i’m brave
Now, my heart is open
And I can finally breathe
Don’t be mad, it’s just the brand new kind of free
That ain’t bad, I found a brand new kind of me.

Alicia Keys – Brand New Me

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