Inspiration Monday

I haven’t posted in awhile. My blog along with my life is going through a transition. Sometimes I think you need to take time out to really figure out what it is that you really want, need and deserve. Sometimes those answers aren’t so easy. Take for instance blogging. The trend right now is a very clean blog with a lot of white space. As I am working on my blog makeover, I thought I had to have that clean white space. I love color! Color inspires me, it makes me happy, it makes me feel powerful. I don’t even own white underwear! So, the new blog will have color! because that’s what I love. I was hearing a lot of negative noise about me as a single parent. Being a single parent isn’t easy and letting people tell you or make you feel you are not doing a good job is an awful feeling. So I decided to no longer let those people say those things to me. Learning to use being a perfectionist and an introvert to my advantage, not let it keep me from showing my work to the world. This transition has not and is not a bad thing for me. Sometimes being in a place of transition helps you to get centered, focused and grounded in your faith. The great thing about a transition is that you are not meant to stay. You are meant to get what you need, learn what you have to, pray, get the help and move to the next phase. Hopefully more confident and with a better understanding.

Stay tuned for the new colorful blog and other cuteness to come soon. Are you going through a transition period? What are trying to accomplish?

Inspiration Monday

When the new year approached I wanted to choose a word that would help remind me of what my goal was for the year. A word that would help me to remember what I was working so hard for, what I wanted. I came up with the word FREE. The word free represents a lot of things for me. A lot of important things. I am FREE to choose the direction I want my life to go in. I am FREE to do things that make me happy. I am FREE to surround myself with people that make me happy and that are positive in my life. I amFREE to believe that I deserve the best. I amFREE to live the life God has intended me to live and live it boldly with all the confidence in the world without apologies. It has been very freeing. I look at my vision board when I forget or when I start to feel small or when I start to let someone make me feel small. I’m starting to make me a priority and it feels great. It takes some getting use to because I have been living the small life for so long, but I know that is not what God has for me. I can’t accomplish my dreams thinking small, being small or living small. It’s time to be FREE to live a BIG BOLD LIFE!

Inspiration Monday

There is a real power in knowing what you don’t want. But I also think that the real power comes when you also know what you do want. As we close out 2014 I had to put a period to somethings in my life. There were somethings that I was afraid to let go of because I thought it would hurt some people and they might walk out of my life. I had to make the decision to save myself. I had to realize that my life was important and valuable and that I had to save myself!. So letting go, pushing them out of my life, and realizing my worth was the best gift that I could give myself. It feels wonderfully scary, but I am so excited about 2015. I feel that I can move on and accomplish my dreams without negativity dragging me down and that is exciting. I know it will be hard, but change is hard. I’ve God on my side and my tribe with me every step of the way. So not only do I know what I do want I know what I want and I can’t wait to get it!

Inspiration Monday

There is something to be said for deciding that your life has value and that you matter. I know that may sound funny, but I think a lot of times especially women we take ourselves for granted and we put ourselves last. I was starting to feel burnt out and that my dreams and goals were being put on the back burner. I was keeping people and things in my life that were draining my energy and little by little taking my life. I had to make a decision. Was I going to save myself or was going to let this person and this situation kill me. I prayed, cried and talked to my tribe of sisters and I decided that I had to save myself, that my life mattered. It will take some time to get use to, but I am determined to put myself first and walk everyday like I have value. That is my plan for the New Year, or I should say for my life. It’ about choices and it’s going to take a lot work but I can handle it. I don’t know why it’s hard to put ourselves first, but so easy to put everyone else first. But every day that we have breath is a day to try again to better, to do better. Doing things that you have never done before are always hard at first, but in time they become second nature. You just have to stick with it and believe that you are worth it. You, your dreams, your goals have value. Once you believe and make up your mind about that, anything is possible.

Strive to make something of yourself, then Strive to make the MOST of yourself. Alexander Crummel

Inspiration Monday

I have been praying for God to show me the direction that I should go in my life. I have so many goals and dreams for my life and for my family that I want to make sure that I am making the right choice for my life. I don’t want to be led by fear anymore, but I finally want to have the courage to live the life that God has intended me to live. I started a new job and I thought it was going to be great and then my Mom got sick. I was stressing out about who was going to help with my son. I hadn’t received a paycheck in months and I had tons of bills that were due. I had to make a choice. What was more important? I chose my family. I knew that I could find something that fit my life and still would allow me to work towards my goals. I didn’t have time to be sad or contemplate my decision. I knew that my decision was the right one for ME and it’s the one I had prayed for. So my heart felt peaceful. That how a the right decision should feel.

Don’t worry about anything; instead pray about everything; Tell God your needs and don’t forget and don’t forget to thank him for his answers. If you do this you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ Jesus. Phillipians 4-6

 

Inspiration Monday

The hardest thing is to depend on God and have faith when you feel that life is against you. Sometimes the voice inside whispers that maybe what you thought was your calling really isn’t. I mean lets face it you’re not making any money, you can’t pay your bills and as much as you hate to admit it you are not getting any younger. I start looking for any reason that I can to explain why I can’t find work. I can’t even seem to get work doing display, something that I have been doing for the majority of my life. It can make you question who you are, your talent, your creativity and for me my faith. I thought is someone giving me a bad reference? Is my credit bad? Not being able to support yourself is a very humbling experience. Especially for someone who likes to be independent. As I try to take this time to truly come to who God wants to be, I have been writing more, I have let go of a very toxic relationship for good, I have been painting and making patterns, and just creating. Not everyday, but I am working up to that. I am feeding my soul with positive quotes, scriptures, friends and people who are praying that I have breakthrough soon and not a breakdown. It’s always important to keep shining a light on the dark, with positive affirmations, prayer, scriptures, your uplifting tribe, your dreams, eventually the darkness will see that it can not grow in your soul any longer and will go away. It might take awhile but don’t give up, the world is waiting on your greatness.